Cutter's Point RK

I'm chillen inside of Russ' favorite coffee shop. This morning I messed up, had a shady dream and God knows the rest. I hate it. I thought I was over it. THe moment we let our guard down, the times we think were doing well are the very times we need to check ourselves most. I feel like an utter failure, a ridiculous mess. I know I messed up and I know that it was a lazy preposterous pretension. I don't even know what pretension means but it sounded cool! The standards are high, which is definitely good, as long as I struggle with all His energy, with all Your energy because Your energy works powerfully and mine is disgustingly. THanks for giving me the coolest friends and family and people in my life to help me understand and live and move and dream big dreams. Lord I know that right now WInter teen camp is starting. PLEASE be with all those kids and the leaders and everyone up there. First help them to be safe drivers and second help them to be fantastic listeners and participants to really understand and live and breathe the scriptures every day. I pray that hearts will be moved, that lives will be changed, that people will wake up and people will step up. Please guide Pete's thoughts as he gets to lead an awesome lesson, i pray that you'll just use him in an awesome way! Please work in all the D-Times, all the lessons, all the talks, all the new friendships that will be made, please allow everything to just go smoothly and beautifully.
Father please also help Nic's tests to go according to plan. I know he's kind of worried about it and I know I'd be scared out of my mind! plese Lord help him to understand that everything's going to be okay, give him boldness and confidence as he's pushing through the difficult times of life. I pray that you'll be with the doctors or interpreters of the CAT scan and allow them to really look at them with wisdom and know what the perfect remedy will be. Father we love you were so grateful for you and I pray that you'll really guide our entire household, please give Joe the strength to pick up his dog's poop, its really getting annoying and i pray you'll just help him step his game up.
Father please please please be with my relationship with Lisa. I love her so much God and if I don't then please help me understand and see what that means and how I should act upon it to make it better. Lord we love you and need you desperately and I pray that you'll just help me to be more humble to be more kind, more patient, more protective, more truthful, more hopeful, more persevering and more optomistic about everything. I love you i need you I so desperately long for a deeper relationship with you and I pray that you'll just help me to step up. Help me to be consistant with my life, to make up my mind and everyday trust and believe and know what I need to do in order to be the best i can be. I love you help me to express it. I believe in you but please help me in my unbelief.
Please be with my time I get to have this morning with Russ, help me to ask what I need to ask and say what I need to say and act the way I need to act in order to pick his brain and get his help. Lord I love you and everything you do. Please give me the strength to get through the tough times.
Sorry one last thing please be with Alex Wertz. I know he's kind of been super busy and out of it and I p;ray you'll help him to but you first in all that he does and really live accoding to your will. Please give him boldness, confidence, love, joy, perseverance. Please help something amazing to happen at UCSD I want to see your miracle! Lord I love you I need you, your awesome its in your name I pray AMEN!