Its Sunday morning and it has been a rollercoaster of a week. The cosine graph of my life, starting SUPER high, going down SUPER low, and then back up again. My selfishness, tiredness, faithlessness, hopelessness, and stubbornness, brought me down. But God brought me back up. Optimistically, last night was one of the best dates! Got to pick my girl up from a conference and fellowshipped with many people, one being a student from Denver named Travis who was really cool. And it was just so encouraging because when people saw me they were like "CURTIS IS HERE!" haha Greg gave me a super crazy hug and Jeffrey recited the book of Hebrews. I admire these brothers so much. Me and Lisa, Nic and Olivia, and Willie and Katie went on an awesome triple to a GREAT helium air balloon, and GREAT carousel, in a GREAT park. I lost my wallet, but the Lord provided it back for me. We went to In-N-Out, played Bocce Ball, and flew 400 feet in the air in a vibrant orange balloon full of Helium!It truly was a blast. Lisa and I got pretty deep in the car driving to Long Beach and I promised her I'd pray. I'm a man of my word.
Lord Almighty,
Father, amazing counselor, perfect savior, you are beautiful, holy, powerful, and mighty. Thanks for you unswerving immeasurable love that is hotter than the sun. Please give me strength, give me energy, give me peace in my soul to forgive and forget any wrong anyone has done to me. I'm sorry for being so emotionally crazy, and blaming it on other people. I apologize for just being a jerk and not being a disciple all the time. Please heal me, thanks for forgiving me already and helping me to stand up stronger. I pray this time I will be surrendered to YOUR will and not MY will. Please Lord just show me the way and I will follow you. Please help me to be bold enough to make the sacrifices I know I need to make. Help me to be a powerful leader who uses his influence wisely with an immense amount of love. I'm so grateful for you and all that you do. Please help me to understand how blessed and lucky and easy my life truly is.
I want to pray especially especially for my amazing girlfriend Lisa. She is such an awesome powerful beautiful woman full of grace. Please fill her with wisdom as she leads girls and her family to you. I know she's doing a great job and giving her entire heart, please give her that extra boost of energy and strength to really make a difference in the lives of every woman in Irvine. As she goes to class help her to be bold enough to change the lives of her friends around her. Please please please connect her family together. Her immediate family is so disconnected at the moment and I know that if they just give Lisa a chance to share her convictions and the bible with her, they would change their lives. Ipray that family will destroy any hint of hypocrisy and really develop deeper convictions with you. I'm sorry I haven't always been there for Lisa to encourage her through family problems but I know she can do it through your power especially. Help Eva to wake up. I pray she will develop Godly sorrow--not worldly sorrow any longer. And as a result that she would open up to start coming to Lisa's church and when she goes back to school help her to not give into her old ways but rather to be connected to the church. I'm so extremely grateful for Lisa and all that you do through her, help her to know exactly what to say and the tone to say it in as she confronts her family on these types of issues. I'm so grateful for her relationship and encouragemnt and partnership in the gospel, help her to always turn to you in times of need.
Lord your awesome thanks for everything
C
Sunday, June 26, 2011
Monday, June 13, 2011
Psycho Anteater
I had a huge thing already written and I have no clue how it got deleted but thats what happens when I multitask. Saturday my amazing girlfriend graduated from UCI with a bachelor in Psychology (she's a psycho anteater) and I had the honor to go to her graduation party! I was pretty nervous because it was going to be the first time I ever met her family. I knocked on the door and Uncle Dan opened up, i introduced myself and stuff and it was cool, he was pretty welcoming. THen I met her little sister Eva who goes to CSUSM--she also had a few friends at the party who I met as well. Next I met her mom Myriam--she was really cool and hyper and seemed excited to meet me. She then introduced me to Lisa's grandparents: Eva and Grandpa the ultra athletic retired marine who said the coolest quote: "take as much as you want, but eat all that you take" (or somethinjg like that)...alright after meeting all those people I walked out back and there was Lisa, she looked stunning in a beautiful pink dress with white polka-dots, pretty badge high-heel sandals, and nails painted near perfection to match her dress... Then I met her pops Buzz. He was grilling some bomb chicken and pineapple skewers. He was really cool I asked what he was grilling and he was like "whatever my wife told me to..." Anyways we were able to talk about construction for awhile later--he works for SDGandE as a designer for all the new city developments--he's a pretty big deal! in fact there used to be 5 people that do all the work he now does because he's the only one that didnt get fired...he seems like a really rad dad. Later I met all Lisa's friends (Alyssa (New York graduate from Lisa's highschool friend), Valerie (oneof Lisa's friends moms who is like auntie Julie and gave Lisa a bunch of drugs), Kevin a disciple, and a couple who came--the guy worked at coffee bean was going for Int'l Business w/ China, ramone? the football O-Line big guy, and of course Chynae...
we played basketball for like 20 minutes and then later played a couple games (monkey game, and the rule game--they did "respond to every question the way you think Lisa would respond) It was definitely funny. Later all the campus left and Chynae, Lisa, and I went to get frozen yogurt--it was SO FUN! We went to Velvet Frozen Yogurt and just had a great time chatting and encouraging her and chynae--my girlfriend is SO amazing!
we played basketball for like 20 minutes and then later played a couple games (monkey game, and the rule game--they did "respond to every question the way you think Lisa would respond) It was definitely funny. Later all the campus left and Chynae, Lisa, and I went to get frozen yogurt--it was SO FUN! We went to Velvet Frozen Yogurt and just had a great time chatting and encouraging her and chynae--my girlfriend is SO amazing!
Thursday, June 9, 2011
PRAY!
Good Morning Lord,
My almighty father, perfect savior, thank you for another day. Lord please help me to wake up quickly and be truly attached to you, your body, the vine, your word, the spirit. I pray that every morning I will wake up early and jump with joy ready to have a great quiet time meditating on you and your beauty. Lord you are so powerful, thank you for expressing your power through the changes found in our lives and the freedom you've delivered us to from sin. Lord I'm so sorry for living in sin still even though I'm supposed to be your slave to righteousness. I pray I will repent, change, live according to your holy precepts. I so desperately and humbly need your help to get through the various challenges I face on a daily basis. THough its not always sinds of commission or actions, often times its sins of ommission and sin of the mind. Please Lord help me to control my mind, my thoughts, and really live out your will, meditate on your philosophy, your lifestyle, your holiness rather than mine. You are far beyond measure in everything that is good. Please help us to see that and be attracted to that far above satan's deceitful measure of everything bad. Help me and the entire campus ministry to truly throw off all the sin all the baggage that really has entangled us and stand up free of chains to really proclaim your name on campus, at the beach, at work, in the park, and everywhere we go. I pray that we can ALL be shephards, that we can all strive to at least have the qualities of an elder and truly get the fire back so that we are completely ready to handle the ginormous influx of new disciples that you will bring for us. I pray that as we grow we will only become more stable, not less personal and less stable but more tightly nit by your cement-factor glue that really makes all things stronger. I pray that the spirit will unite us all and that we will be a campus minsitry of SOLID character. HElp us all to truly work on our character and not let the selfishness or unrighteousness hold us back from being perfect and holy and mature in your name. I love you so much Lord, thank you for the greatness that you are. Please please please be with Lisa and I's awesome dating relationship. I know that it will only ever work if you are the head, number one, above all in our relationship. I pray that we will both keep you number one in our own personal lives, and number one in our relationship. I pray that we will do nothing that upsets you...though there will be times we mess up i pray that those will be far outweighed by the times we make you proud. Ipray that she will feel SUPER encouraged by me, my letters, cards, compliments, and quality time--especaily the quality time I get to spend with her this week and the rest of the summer and however long you want us to date for. I pray that if it is your will we might someday be ready to take it to the next level--but only if it is your will. Please allow this weekend to be a great time for me to meet her family and friends, but most importantly I pray that it will be a time i get to encourage Lisa and make her feel special. I pray that I can truly get along with her mom and dad first and then all her sisters, that I can come in and just be very charismatic, relatable, and represent you right. I love you so much and I pray you will continue to guide all my thoughts, attitudes, desires, and increase my faith beyond--far beyond where it is right now. I love you so much, once again please guide me in all I do. I love you, your awesome--oh and please be leading our household meeting tonight. I know that kevin is leading the charge, help him to deliver it right, not to be shy but really say what he needs to say, what you want him to say. I love you once again, thanks for all you do--AMEN!
My almighty father, perfect savior, thank you for another day. Lord please help me to wake up quickly and be truly attached to you, your body, the vine, your word, the spirit. I pray that every morning I will wake up early and jump with joy ready to have a great quiet time meditating on you and your beauty. Lord you are so powerful, thank you for expressing your power through the changes found in our lives and the freedom you've delivered us to from sin. Lord I'm so sorry for living in sin still even though I'm supposed to be your slave to righteousness. I pray I will repent, change, live according to your holy precepts. I so desperately and humbly need your help to get through the various challenges I face on a daily basis. THough its not always sinds of commission or actions, often times its sins of ommission and sin of the mind. Please Lord help me to control my mind, my thoughts, and really live out your will, meditate on your philosophy, your lifestyle, your holiness rather than mine. You are far beyond measure in everything that is good. Please help us to see that and be attracted to that far above satan's deceitful measure of everything bad. Help me and the entire campus ministry to truly throw off all the sin all the baggage that really has entangled us and stand up free of chains to really proclaim your name on campus, at the beach, at work, in the park, and everywhere we go. I pray that we can ALL be shephards, that we can all strive to at least have the qualities of an elder and truly get the fire back so that we are completely ready to handle the ginormous influx of new disciples that you will bring for us. I pray that as we grow we will only become more stable, not less personal and less stable but more tightly nit by your cement-factor glue that really makes all things stronger. I pray that the spirit will unite us all and that we will be a campus minsitry of SOLID character. HElp us all to truly work on our character and not let the selfishness or unrighteousness hold us back from being perfect and holy and mature in your name. I love you so much Lord, thank you for the greatness that you are. Please please please be with Lisa and I's awesome dating relationship. I know that it will only ever work if you are the head, number one, above all in our relationship. I pray that we will both keep you number one in our own personal lives, and number one in our relationship. I pray that we will do nothing that upsets you...though there will be times we mess up i pray that those will be far outweighed by the times we make you proud. Ipray that she will feel SUPER encouraged by me, my letters, cards, compliments, and quality time--especaily the quality time I get to spend with her this week and the rest of the summer and however long you want us to date for. I pray that if it is your will we might someday be ready to take it to the next level--but only if it is your will. Please allow this weekend to be a great time for me to meet her family and friends, but most importantly I pray that it will be a time i get to encourage Lisa and make her feel special. I pray that I can truly get along with her mom and dad first and then all her sisters, that I can come in and just be very charismatic, relatable, and represent you right. I love you so much and I pray you will continue to guide all my thoughts, attitudes, desires, and increase my faith beyond--far beyond where it is right now. I love you so much, once again please guide me in all I do. I love you, your awesome--oh and please be leading our household meeting tonight. I know that kevin is leading the charge, help him to deliver it right, not to be shy but really say what he needs to say, what you want him to say. I love you once again, thanks for all you do--AMEN!
Thursday, June 2, 2011
One Year's TIme
Lord in Heaven. You are perfect, you are powerful, you are so gracious and you are love. Thank you for my amazing girlfriend Lisa who has inspired me to have a greater vision for myself, my friends, my family and ministry. Lord I pray that in one year, things will be even better than they are now. It's hard to imagine it, but Lord I firmly believe that you are going to move so radically and powerfully in my life through this last year of campus ministry. Please Lord, allow the best possible things to happen, i want to live life accomplishing the things you call me to, with eyes that see your perspective and are so devoted to living YOUR plan above my plan. Please give me the strength, energy, faith, and boldness to really live your plan out. I believe that in one year Lisa and I are going to be even closer. She's nearly done with her undergraduate work and now she's going to grad school which starts 1 week after her graduation. Please please please bless her life, her opportunity, her efforts to work so hard and learn so much. I know she was dreading her decision for a while and I kind of was too with my own selfishness, but please in one year I pray that the two of us will be optimistically awaiting her completion and in a state of much more unity, love, devotion and peace with one another. I pray that if it is your will, we could help plant a church somewhere. San Clemente would be so awesome!! I pray that if that is what you want, I'll be a GREAT surfer, that my pain especially will go away, please heal me, strengthen my bones and help me to be a man of great poise. Lord I love you SO much and I'm so extremely grateful for all you've done. I pray that in one year's time our campus ministry will far exceed 100 strong disciples. THat with our growth we stay SUPER united, SUPER connected to YOU, and extremely devoted to the fellowship. Please give UCSD a radical boost. I pray we can triple by the beginning of the fall semester 2012 and that you'll truly give me, alex, danielle, and alexis and dametrius a fervent spirit and devotion to your truth that is unlike anything in the world. I love you so much Lord please especially be with my little brother. I love him so much and I am so grateful for his love I pray you'll guide his path, make it straight and consistant. I pray he won't give in to peer pressure or look up to boys who have no spiritual mindset, but rather I pray you'll help me and others around him to be spiritual guides that help him to make it to heaven and lead a ministry someday. I love you so much Lord. Please use me, strengthen me, and encourage me right now and every day. Help me to be filled with joy as a result of the great purpose you've given us. I love you. AMEN!
Tuesday, May 10, 2011
Prayer List
Dear God,
Father in heaven you are mighty. You are holy and perfect and above all there is has been and ever will be. You are the first and the last, the alpha and the omega and you are love. Thank you Lord, for your ear or mind whether your reading this or listening to my thoughts. I'm so sorry for not living up to this prayer list that I've had for over a week. Its kind of crazy I take all the time to write it out but don't even use it. So thanks for the opportunity to use it right now I pray that you'll bless everything on it the way that you want.
Lord I pray first for Taylor, that he'll get that one guy in a bible study. Please give him the strength, faith, boldness and confidence he needs to accomplish his goal and find the man that you have set up for him to be with. I pray that he will be bold and courageous as they do bible studies and that you'll use Taylor as an instrument to truly get to that man's heart mind and soul.
I pray that Reachard can be a man of consistancy. Please give him the strength to be consistantly open with me and the rest of the brothers, that he'll talk to me as much as he needs to and really put it all out there on the line. I pray that you'll control his eyes and help him to not look all over the place at the many beautiful women that walk around our campus everyday but that instead he can be self controlled and alert, always focused on you. Thanks for giving him a pure heart I pray that all his intentions with Rachelle will be of the utmost purity and love. Please bless his efforts and give him the humility to know when it is or is not time to start dating her on the sixteenth.
Lord I want to pray for Alex Wertz as well, please give him confidence and peace when it comes to school. He has been such a hard worker and I know your using him in a great way. I just pray that he'll have the best possible balance of school, work and the ministry. Help him to never stop pursuing perfection with all his heart. I pray that all his quiet times and prayer times will be efficient, effective, and inspiring. Thanks for his partnership in the gospel and his strength to overcome the challenges that are on a campus by yourself. I love him so much help him to feel my love and please fill him up with a great joy!
Thank you so much for Nacho's wildness and sporadic heart. I pray you'll continually use him and help him to grow into a mighty man who is so intimately connected to you that it is amazing. I love his perseverance and I pray you'll take care of all the challenges that have recently been brought to the Parra family. Help him his brothers and sister and everyone in the family to get through this terrible time of sadness and somehow turn out stronger on the other side. I love him so much please fill him with a consistancy and an unswerving joy that is not dependant on emotion.
Lord I pray that Jack can continually work on his discipline and perseverance when it comes to being a mighty man in the paid ministry. I know he is doing a great job, help him to really feel it and believe that he is. Help him see the ginormous impact he's having on every teen's life right now and the ways that he can grow as well. I pray you'll give him the strength to accomplish his goal to meet have every teen in a bible study or a discipling time this week.
Please give Pete the continued perseverance and growth to also be a solid paid intern ministering to the needs of every campus student. He's been doing a great job as you can see. Help him to be consistant with it and really continue to develop the skills and talents that you've given him. I pray he'll continue to grow and be even more disciplined than I have ever been. Give him total victory over sin and a radical indignance towards other people's sin. Help him to lead the campus with much boldness and faith.
Thanks also for the amazing Nic Hermasillo. I pray you'll continue to work through him at Mesa college and Grossmont. He's been growing so rapidly and I'm so proud of him, thanks for giving him victories and an awesome girlfriend as well. I pray Olivia will not distract him from the real task at hand and that he'll be much stronger and persistant with leading the bible talks he leads. Help him especially to get with Lamar and continue to assess where he's at, where he needs to be, and what he needs to do in order to get there. Help him to figure out the best spot he can be in for the future house(s) and really have the humility it will take to make any house work.
Thank you SO much for the hilarious and fruitful Kirk. I love his personality, his humor, his strength, and example. I pray you'll continue to build his discipline and diligence. Please give him wisdom and strength to fully take care and address the deep sin of Moses and Adam. He's been such a great example for both of those men and I know your using him in a great way. Thanks for his love his support and all the talents you've given him. I pray everything can go well with his future in florida and that he can really bring a bold element of love and faith to every place he goes. Please protect him when he goes up to OC with Adam to address the gang. That is such a bold expression of love, please don't let him get hurt beyond repair.
I also want to pray for my amazing roomate Kevin. He's such a hard working man full of character. I know his goal is to finish Isaiah and I pray he'll really get through it accomplish it and learn something powerful from it. He's a great brother and always giving. I pray you'll continue to increase his strengths and turn his weaknesses into strengths. I pray especially for his purity and the purity of all of us really that you'll give us radical victories over the lust, pornography and masturbation we so deceitfully get pulled into far too often.
And my last roommate Sam is my personal favorite. He sleeps next to me and is such a talented man. Please Lord fill him up with an immense amount of discipline especially this final week of finals. I know he has to get a lot of A's and I pray you will bless him to accomplish the grades he needs to get in order to be an intern this Summer. I know he's been struggling with a lot of impurity lately and I pray you'll once and for all give him the strength, the desire, the drive, the boldness to throw it off, to get it out of his system, to crucify his old self and become a slave to righteousness instead. I know he works hard and tries hard but I pray you'll give him the extra ounce of discipline he so desperately needs right now.
In addition I want to pray especially for DAVID at UCSD! I'm so grateful we got a Taiwanese brother studying the bible. Its so cool seeing his eagerness to hear the gospel and really study the word out. I love his presence at the bible talks each week and I pray he'll come tomorrow and bring my bible and be excited to receive his own. I know he's a busy man but I pray that he'll never let himself get too busy for you Lord. Give him a solid foundation, please be the foundataion he builds his entire life upon. I pray Alex and I will be great ambassadors helping him understand your teaching. So give him the strength to read his bible every day and seek you with all his heart.
Lord i also want to pray for Chris Hernandez. I know he's got a lot of big trust issues but I pray that you'll give him the faith to let you take control of his life.
In addition I pray right now for my discipler Daniel, this amazing example and brother and disciple for the entire campus ministry. I know you've given him some great talents, help him to never stop using them to bring you glory. I pray you'll really be with his future job that he may get. Please give him wisdom on which job to accept and which job to reject. I know that you've allowed him to develop some radical skills and i pray that he really uses them to bring you glory above all. Please hook him up with an epic job so he can pay off debt, take care of the family, and really show an immense amount of love to those around him. I pray that especially with this last week of school he'll be a man of deep focus, staying on the path and really protecting his time. Help him to be extremely open with you and also with me. I pray that everything that was kind of under his radar on monday will really be revealed and taken care of before its due so he doesn't "forget" or procrastinate but that he can finish super strong and learn a grip.Overall i pray he'll work harder than he plays and that he too will stick to his prayer list.
Father God I want to pray especially for the future of an amazing woman disciple and girlfriend Lisa Hinton. She has so many talents and forms of beauty I'm so proud of her growth and excellence in life. Please give her an extra dose of understanding when it comes to the future. Right now shes in a crazy transition point of life and I know that she has the ability to be great at whatever she does. I pray that she will see it and that she'll make the right choice which will fill her with the most amount of joy purpose and accomplishment. I know she has dreams of going in the full time ministry and especially planting a church possibly in San Clemente. I know she could do a great job at that and really make amazing progress when it comes to trusting in you above all else. Lord if it is in your plan, if it would be productive and fruitful I pray that I can be one of the men that plants a church in San Clemente. I think it would be a great experience and an amazing time in which we could build our relationship and devotion to you through serving such a city as San Clemente. Obviously there is currently not a church that we know of there and I know that you have people that live there that are seeking you and want to hear your message. Please give us a boldness, confidence, and faith to see that and pursue that. Even if I'm not included in that plan I pray that Lisa can do a great job getting out of her comfort zone and not worrying about what other people think about her and her dreams. Lord I love you like crazy and I'm so extremely eternally grateful for all that you are doing right now. THanks again for being my God and blessing me in so many great ways. I love you with all my heart, mind, soul, and strength.
please finally be with our household tonight as we pray for understanding and wisdom in what to do for the future of this house. I love you so much and pray we can really be on the same page with everyone being happy. Your awesome God. Much love,
Curtis
Father in heaven you are mighty. You are holy and perfect and above all there is has been and ever will be. You are the first and the last, the alpha and the omega and you are love. Thank you Lord, for your ear or mind whether your reading this or listening to my thoughts. I'm so sorry for not living up to this prayer list that I've had for over a week. Its kind of crazy I take all the time to write it out but don't even use it. So thanks for the opportunity to use it right now I pray that you'll bless everything on it the way that you want.
Lord I pray first for Taylor, that he'll get that one guy in a bible study. Please give him the strength, faith, boldness and confidence he needs to accomplish his goal and find the man that you have set up for him to be with. I pray that he will be bold and courageous as they do bible studies and that you'll use Taylor as an instrument to truly get to that man's heart mind and soul.
I pray that Reachard can be a man of consistancy. Please give him the strength to be consistantly open with me and the rest of the brothers, that he'll talk to me as much as he needs to and really put it all out there on the line. I pray that you'll control his eyes and help him to not look all over the place at the many beautiful women that walk around our campus everyday but that instead he can be self controlled and alert, always focused on you. Thanks for giving him a pure heart I pray that all his intentions with Rachelle will be of the utmost purity and love. Please bless his efforts and give him the humility to know when it is or is not time to start dating her on the sixteenth.
Lord I want to pray for Alex Wertz as well, please give him confidence and peace when it comes to school. He has been such a hard worker and I know your using him in a great way. I just pray that he'll have the best possible balance of school, work and the ministry. Help him to never stop pursuing perfection with all his heart. I pray that all his quiet times and prayer times will be efficient, effective, and inspiring. Thanks for his partnership in the gospel and his strength to overcome the challenges that are on a campus by yourself. I love him so much help him to feel my love and please fill him up with a great joy!
Thank you so much for Nacho's wildness and sporadic heart. I pray you'll continually use him and help him to grow into a mighty man who is so intimately connected to you that it is amazing. I love his perseverance and I pray you'll take care of all the challenges that have recently been brought to the Parra family. Help him his brothers and sister and everyone in the family to get through this terrible time of sadness and somehow turn out stronger on the other side. I love him so much please fill him with a consistancy and an unswerving joy that is not dependant on emotion.
Lord I pray that Jack can continually work on his discipline and perseverance when it comes to being a mighty man in the paid ministry. I know he is doing a great job, help him to really feel it and believe that he is. Help him see the ginormous impact he's having on every teen's life right now and the ways that he can grow as well. I pray you'll give him the strength to accomplish his goal to meet have every teen in a bible study or a discipling time this week.
Please give Pete the continued perseverance and growth to also be a solid paid intern ministering to the needs of every campus student. He's been doing a great job as you can see. Help him to be consistant with it and really continue to develop the skills and talents that you've given him. I pray he'll continue to grow and be even more disciplined than I have ever been. Give him total victory over sin and a radical indignance towards other people's sin. Help him to lead the campus with much boldness and faith.
Thanks also for the amazing Nic Hermasillo. I pray you'll continue to work through him at Mesa college and Grossmont. He's been growing so rapidly and I'm so proud of him, thanks for giving him victories and an awesome girlfriend as well. I pray Olivia will not distract him from the real task at hand and that he'll be much stronger and persistant with leading the bible talks he leads. Help him especially to get with Lamar and continue to assess where he's at, where he needs to be, and what he needs to do in order to get there. Help him to figure out the best spot he can be in for the future house(s) and really have the humility it will take to make any house work.
Thank you SO much for the hilarious and fruitful Kirk. I love his personality, his humor, his strength, and example. I pray you'll continue to build his discipline and diligence. Please give him wisdom and strength to fully take care and address the deep sin of Moses and Adam. He's been such a great example for both of those men and I know your using him in a great way. Thanks for his love his support and all the talents you've given him. I pray everything can go well with his future in florida and that he can really bring a bold element of love and faith to every place he goes. Please protect him when he goes up to OC with Adam to address the gang. That is such a bold expression of love, please don't let him get hurt beyond repair.
I also want to pray for my amazing roomate Kevin. He's such a hard working man full of character. I know his goal is to finish Isaiah and I pray he'll really get through it accomplish it and learn something powerful from it. He's a great brother and always giving. I pray you'll continue to increase his strengths and turn his weaknesses into strengths. I pray especially for his purity and the purity of all of us really that you'll give us radical victories over the lust, pornography and masturbation we so deceitfully get pulled into far too often.
And my last roommate Sam is my personal favorite. He sleeps next to me and is such a talented man. Please Lord fill him up with an immense amount of discipline especially this final week of finals. I know he has to get a lot of A's and I pray you will bless him to accomplish the grades he needs to get in order to be an intern this Summer. I know he's been struggling with a lot of impurity lately and I pray you'll once and for all give him the strength, the desire, the drive, the boldness to throw it off, to get it out of his system, to crucify his old self and become a slave to righteousness instead. I know he works hard and tries hard but I pray you'll give him the extra ounce of discipline he so desperately needs right now.
In addition I want to pray especially for DAVID at UCSD! I'm so grateful we got a Taiwanese brother studying the bible. Its so cool seeing his eagerness to hear the gospel and really study the word out. I love his presence at the bible talks each week and I pray he'll come tomorrow and bring my bible and be excited to receive his own. I know he's a busy man but I pray that he'll never let himself get too busy for you Lord. Give him a solid foundation, please be the foundataion he builds his entire life upon. I pray Alex and I will be great ambassadors helping him understand your teaching. So give him the strength to read his bible every day and seek you with all his heart.
Lord i also want to pray for Chris Hernandez. I know he's got a lot of big trust issues but I pray that you'll give him the faith to let you take control of his life.
In addition I pray right now for my discipler Daniel, this amazing example and brother and disciple for the entire campus ministry. I know you've given him some great talents, help him to never stop using them to bring you glory. I pray you'll really be with his future job that he may get. Please give him wisdom on which job to accept and which job to reject. I know that you've allowed him to develop some radical skills and i pray that he really uses them to bring you glory above all. Please hook him up with an epic job so he can pay off debt, take care of the family, and really show an immense amount of love to those around him. I pray that especially with this last week of school he'll be a man of deep focus, staying on the path and really protecting his time. Help him to be extremely open with you and also with me. I pray that everything that was kind of under his radar on monday will really be revealed and taken care of before its due so he doesn't "forget" or procrastinate but that he can finish super strong and learn a grip.Overall i pray he'll work harder than he plays and that he too will stick to his prayer list.
Father God I want to pray especially for the future of an amazing woman disciple and girlfriend Lisa Hinton. She has so many talents and forms of beauty I'm so proud of her growth and excellence in life. Please give her an extra dose of understanding when it comes to the future. Right now shes in a crazy transition point of life and I know that she has the ability to be great at whatever she does. I pray that she will see it and that she'll make the right choice which will fill her with the most amount of joy purpose and accomplishment. I know she has dreams of going in the full time ministry and especially planting a church possibly in San Clemente. I know she could do a great job at that and really make amazing progress when it comes to trusting in you above all else. Lord if it is in your plan, if it would be productive and fruitful I pray that I can be one of the men that plants a church in San Clemente. I think it would be a great experience and an amazing time in which we could build our relationship and devotion to you through serving such a city as San Clemente. Obviously there is currently not a church that we know of there and I know that you have people that live there that are seeking you and want to hear your message. Please give us a boldness, confidence, and faith to see that and pursue that. Even if I'm not included in that plan I pray that Lisa can do a great job getting out of her comfort zone and not worrying about what other people think about her and her dreams. Lord I love you like crazy and I'm so extremely eternally grateful for all that you are doing right now. THanks again for being my God and blessing me in so many great ways. I love you with all my heart, mind, soul, and strength.
please finally be with our household tonight as we pray for understanding and wisdom in what to do for the future of this house. I love you so much and pray we can really be on the same page with everyone being happy. Your awesome God. Much love,
Curtis
Friday, April 29, 2011
library prayer
Almighty Father,
As you know this library can be a monstrosity of distractions and contractions from truth and academics. I'm sorry for letting the girls and surfline and espn and youtube and laziness get in the way of my duties. The things you've entrusted me to, I push away because i'm having "a bad day" or I don't FEEL like working hard today, the excuses are endless but it always comes down to the same mess, I don't know why but there's just no motivation to excel at the moment. I know you want me to shine and glorify you with my life and I know that if I don't work hard I will never grow, learn, or return fruitful with the talents you've given me. But at the same time if I try to build this house of knowledge and so-called academic "success" without you behind it, its meaningless. And if you are not the builder of my house than my house is fruitless. I know that my laziness has brought you distress and I'm sorry for not always doing my best. Please Lord give me the strength energy drive and capacity to truly drive out demons and fight through all the most challenging seasons. Use me today to grow and prove productive in purity. Thanks for dying for me and rising for me and help me to allow your power to motivate me. I love you G.
As you know this library can be a monstrosity of distractions and contractions from truth and academics. I'm sorry for letting the girls and surfline and espn and youtube and laziness get in the way of my duties. The things you've entrusted me to, I push away because i'm having "a bad day" or I don't FEEL like working hard today, the excuses are endless but it always comes down to the same mess, I don't know why but there's just no motivation to excel at the moment. I know you want me to shine and glorify you with my life and I know that if I don't work hard I will never grow, learn, or return fruitful with the talents you've given me. But at the same time if I try to build this house of knowledge and so-called academic "success" without you behind it, its meaningless. And if you are not the builder of my house than my house is fruitless. I know that my laziness has brought you distress and I'm sorry for not always doing my best. Please Lord give me the strength energy drive and capacity to truly drive out demons and fight through all the most challenging seasons. Use me today to grow and prove productive in purity. Thanks for dying for me and rising for me and help me to allow your power to motivate me. I love you G.
Saturday, March 12, 2011
Tsunamis, Perseverance, Wisdom and Love
Two days ago an 8.9 Earthquake smashed off the coast of Japan causing a tsunami to wreack havoc on the coastal areas of Japan. Fortunately, they have some of the most solid construction in this area, and more than 1000 are dead. This could be MUCH worse, but that is still 1000 people who no longer have any chance to follow God. Though it is possible that everyone of them was a solid disciple and currently with God in heaven, for some reason I have little faith of that. It scares me. It challenges me. It inspires me. Life truly is delicate. At any point now I could be picked off by Satan, and die, and fail, and never be with God. But what am I doing to prevent that? What am I doing to not let that happen to myself, my friends, and my family? Truth is, not a whole lot. The end times are near (matt 24) and yet all day yesterday I was selfish with my time and just stayed home on my butt, paying no attention to the battle. I failed. Because even if I didn't watch porn or fight with my family, I didn't do the good I knew I should've. For that, I am sorry Lord. I've been so self-centered and focused on the future and how great its going to be to start dating that I forgot about the present, and the bible studies I need to have and the things I need to do in order to take as many people with me to heaven.
And as a result of the laziness of me and the lack of love from me and whoever, one of my dear brothers has left in seemingly the most woosy possible way--with a text:
"Daniel I love you. I courteously resign from the Christian religion. I don't believe my family is going to hell because they aren't baptized the right way. I don't believe in Satan. I don't have my sexuality anymore but I am still staying away from sexual immorality. I still believe in truth. Please don't pray for me. Also, no offense, but I don't want to 'talk about it' with you or anyone. Please don't feel sad about it."
This is not something I will dwell on. this is not something I will have a worldly sorrow about. THis is a disgusting display of what Satan can do to the most holy of men. This is how bliinded he can make us, even to the point that we deny his very existence. I love Jon Rattan and I will always love Jon Rattan, but Satan has a hold on him right now, and if I could save him I would, but I don't think I can and I don't think he wants to be saved, and therefore I will do my best to not let this happen again. I pray that I can be a great discipler, really getting in there with the men I've been entrusted to. And I pray that I myself will NEVER be blinded by Satan's deceit. Lord I'm sorry for even thinking about the possibility of leaving you.
For the message of the cross is foolisheness to those who are perishing, but to us who are being saved it is the power of God. For it is written: "I will destroy the wisdom of the wise; the intelligence of the intelligent I will frustrate."
...For the foolishness of God is wiser than man's wisdom, and the weakness of God is stronger than man's strength...
1 Corinthians 1:18, 25
Thank you so much for the cross Lord. It is amazing and my wisdom and man's wisdom will never be able to come even near the wisdom you can and do present.
But through all the murck, all the terrible things that are happening in SD and the world. THere are some amazing things. Gordie Nash is slowly becoming a disciple. I love this man and I'm so proud of his progress. Though he has a huge challenge with the fact that his mom had a terrible experience with the church, I pray that he will not let that mess him up and understand rather that you are much bigger than his mom, and what you say must go! In addition, there is an amazing sister in Orange County and it looks like in the next few weeks I'm going to start dating her! I really don't deserve her to be my "exclusive" sister and GOOD friend (at this point) but I am so grateful for the miracles God performs such as this. I love her like crazy and I'm so stoked for the second! (Habakkuk 3:18-20)
And as a result of the laziness of me and the lack of love from me and whoever, one of my dear brothers has left in seemingly the most woosy possible way--with a text:
"Daniel I love you. I courteously resign from the Christian religion. I don't believe my family is going to hell because they aren't baptized the right way. I don't believe in Satan. I don't have my sexuality anymore but I am still staying away from sexual immorality. I still believe in truth. Please don't pray for me. Also, no offense, but I don't want to 'talk about it' with you or anyone. Please don't feel sad about it."
This is not something I will dwell on. this is not something I will have a worldly sorrow about. THis is a disgusting display of what Satan can do to the most holy of men. This is how bliinded he can make us, even to the point that we deny his very existence. I love Jon Rattan and I will always love Jon Rattan, but Satan has a hold on him right now, and if I could save him I would, but I don't think I can and I don't think he wants to be saved, and therefore I will do my best to not let this happen again. I pray that I can be a great discipler, really getting in there with the men I've been entrusted to. And I pray that I myself will NEVER be blinded by Satan's deceit. Lord I'm sorry for even thinking about the possibility of leaving you.
For the message of the cross is foolisheness to those who are perishing, but to us who are being saved it is the power of God. For it is written: "I will destroy the wisdom of the wise; the intelligence of the intelligent I will frustrate."
...For the foolishness of God is wiser than man's wisdom, and the weakness of God is stronger than man's strength...
1 Corinthians 1:18, 25
Thank you so much for the cross Lord. It is amazing and my wisdom and man's wisdom will never be able to come even near the wisdom you can and do present.
But through all the murck, all the terrible things that are happening in SD and the world. THere are some amazing things. Gordie Nash is slowly becoming a disciple. I love this man and I'm so proud of his progress. Though he has a huge challenge with the fact that his mom had a terrible experience with the church, I pray that he will not let that mess him up and understand rather that you are much bigger than his mom, and what you say must go! In addition, there is an amazing sister in Orange County and it looks like in the next few weeks I'm going to start dating her! I really don't deserve her to be my "exclusive" sister and GOOD friend (at this point) but I am so grateful for the miracles God performs such as this. I love her like crazy and I'm so stoked for the second! (Habakkuk 3:18-20)
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