Drugs :(

Due to recent events of my snooping around my brother's facebook, it has come to my attention that my brother has been caught up in the despicable act of smoking weed. I know sin is sin and I am a sinner and so is he but smoking is a sin that is damaging on so many levels, that its painful to me to know that there's even a chance that he can suffer so bad. I love my brother so much that tonight I'm going to confront him on this topic, by asking many questions and with a deep devotion to love, so that I can help him get over this obstacle.

I read a lot of distressing things, but here are a few quotes I wrote down:

Ima go smoke while I do math HW
Gabe MacNight

I'm being nice by giving you my weed for free
Carsten Lester

Call me if you want to come to Clairemont cuz I might be able to use the bong
Gabe MacNight

I also read messages in which Carsten asked Elliott for a pipe...

This hurts, it almost brings me to tears, but I think it clarifies why my bro has been so negative lately. I want to say something along these lines:

First of all, I want you to know I love you. I love you a lot. I'm sorry for all the times I've hurt you and I hope I don't hurt you right now, but if I do, its because I love you.

So bro, I brought you up here for a reason, I've noticed lately that I've felt like you've been disrespectful to me, and mom and dad, and I know when i was your age I was caught up in some heavy sin. I used to masturbate every day and look at pornography. And whenever I did that, I had a very bad, negative attitude, I started getting overly defensive, and aggressive towards you, my parents, and my friends. So I want to apologize for the times I was so caught up in those deep sins in the past, and I want to ask you about your life, have you been caught up in sin?

If he doesnt get specific, I'll start asking him, have you been masturbating? watching P? what about smoking weed? (make sure you get eye contact) so you have been smoking weed...how much? why? what do you think that will lead to?
When did you start?
Do you plan to continue? Why? Spell out the consequences:
Weed destroys relationships: its damaging to your relationship with me, mom, dad, true friends, yourself, and most importantly God.
Weed is a gateway drug, and so though maybe right now you don't feel like its impairing you, it gradually gets worse. The first hit is always the strongest, and then it starts to lose its flair because your body gets used to it. Then you have to go on to the next drug and its a domino effect until finally it kills you due to overdose or become so consumed in drugs that you don't take care of basic needs

If he wants help overcoming it, challenge him to 1. ask mom and dad for help, 2. attend a CR meeting or talk to Nacho tonight

THANKS 4 GIVING 2 ME

GOD, Lord, Father, Protector, Provider, Perfector
THANK YOU
My life is yours, my soul is yours, my everything is yours and I am so grateful for that. Please Lord, let me further understand what you do for me on a daily basis. I ask for you guidance in my life and the general ability to to see your greatness within my life. Lord thanks for all you've done and are doing and I pray that I would never stop growing in my gratitude for your amazingness. WOrds cannot come close to expressing how wonderful and faithful you are. Please Lord help me to live a life of extreme expression of gratitude and give me the strength to live in such a manner as to help other people feel a gratitude for your greatness as well. Please please please be with my family, who has lately seemed to be a mess. God I ask that you guide my grandfather. He's so unfaithful to your promises and doesn't believe or worry about life after death, and that scares me. I pray that you humble him out before he dies and really help him to see the truth of you. Lord I'm soo sooo sooooooo grateful for my little brother carsten. He's such an awesome kid and it was so painful to read that junk that was on his facebook last night. I really beg and ask you to just help him to be way more humble. I ask for your help in being a great brother to him. Please help him to give up weed for the rest of his life, not because me or my parents force him to, but because we show him so much love and reveal the truth of what it can do as a gateway drug to people. I pray you'd fill me with wisdom and understanding in striving to figure out the truth of what he's doing and really helping him. Not being against him but right by his side, fighting off the temptations and challenges Satan uses to mislead us. Please help him to see the deceit of what he's getting pulled into, and help him to fight the great fight, rising up as a powerful leader changing the lives of thousands of people in his lifetime. Lord I want to pray for my lovely little Lisa. Thanks for her greatness and her encouragement in my life. I would not be the man I am today without her. I ask that you guide her and confide within her right now as shes going through very challenging things with her family and discipling partner. Please please please help her parents to get along and actually talk and have a pure relationship. I pray that other peoples issues wouldnt stress her out but that they would cause her to turn even more tightly to you and rely on you for the love and growth to really be the best she can be. I ask that you'd really wake Buzz up, and give him the power to be humble and be righteous and step out on faith to give himself to you and not alcohol or sin the way he has in the past. I ask that you really soften DJ's heart and help her to be way more approachable for Lisa. I pray that they can develop a super great relationship a friendship that is iron sharpening iron, and that they really do their best to stay devoted to you every day. And for me Lord I pray that you'd give me the strength to be a radiant leader, a powerful man devoted to you above anything else in my life, help me to be a man after your own heart and a fighter for the truth. Please give me life and guide me to be a master of the life you want us to live. I ask for your continued patience and faith and love in my life. Please give me an uncompromisable dose of love and joy. I pray people like Morgan can see my joy and see my love and really strive to come way closer to you. I want to pray for the entire 92109 zip code--PB is such an awesome place and I'm grateful for all the relationships there. I ask that you really help our group to be completely focused on you, not ourselves, or feeling good, but just focused on you, your greatness, your faith in us. I love the way you give us grace and I ask that you really guide us to the right houses/apartments. Help us to speak with faith and please help us to know how to act and how to live. Lord I love you so much, thanks for being the awesome and perfect father that you are. I'm thankful for so much, here's a start:


Thank you for life and thank you for death.
Thank you for growth and thank you for clarity
Thank you for beauty, and thank you for disgusting stuff
Thank you for good smells and for the bad ones
Thank you for love and thank you for joy
Thank you for peace and prosperity
Thank you for health, for faith, and for healing me
Thank you for my family
Thank you for my job
Thank you for my friends
Thank you for my brother
Thank you for my family
Thank you for my girlfriend
Thank you for my house
Thank you for my roommates
Thank you for my classmates
Thank you for my professors
Thank you for my food
Thank you for technology and the ability to type this up
Thank you for freedom
THank you for parents who care about me and the ability for me to be a father to the fatherless.
Thank you Lord, for life to the FULL
For grace that is unfading
Thank you for the truth
Thank you for my indignance towards evil
THank you for PURITY
Thank you for not forcing me to always try to impress my roommates, family, or brothers/sisters in the kingdom with superficiality.
Thank you for beauty
Thank you for colors
Thank you for GRACE
Thank you for guidance