Quotes

Love, generally, is that principle that leads one moral being to desire and delight in another, and reaches its highest form in that personal fellowship in which each person lives in the life of the other, and in receiving back the outflow of that others affection unto himself (James Orr, knowing God 123)

Happiness is only real when shared.
(Into the Wild)

Wisdom is the power to see and the inclination to choose, the best and highest goal, togethor with the surest means of attaining it.
(Knowing God)

Until man duplicates a blade of grass, nature can laugh at his so called "scientific knowledge"
(Thomas Edison in cueball christianity by Jeff Arias)

Stand on what is true (scripture) and do not let go. Period.
(Wild at Heart 166)

"My hands can bend a bow of bronze"
Psalm 18:34

"Where there's no communication, Satan fills in the gaps."
(Wild at Heart)

"The World" is not a place or a set of behaviors--it is a system built by our collective sin, all our false selves coming together to reward and destroy each other.
(Wild at Heart 151)

"To experience the strength of a man is to have him speak on our behalf...'how are you?' is one of the most loving questions John asks me"
(Wild at Heart)

"As cars were created to be fueled by gasoline, we were created to be fueled by God"

The deeper you get in the water (the deeper into a man's heart) the more dangerous it gets...but the better it gets...draw your heart out, dig deep, get vulnerable! stop being shallow on the outside in ankle deep water! it may be safer, but it don't matter nearly as much
Prov. 20:5 Lisa's interpretation

psalm 101:3

1 Peter 4-5


jesus never doubted his vision was unclouded
103 Jesus the Same

we measure men too much by their capacities, by what they are today and not by what they may become later on
105 jesus the same

The Orange Moon and an Emotional Monsoon

Its Sunday morning and it has been a rollercoaster of a week. The cosine graph of my life, starting SUPER high, going down SUPER low, and then back up again. My selfishness, tiredness, faithlessness, hopelessness, and stubbornness, brought me down. But God brought me back up. Optimistically, last night was one of the best dates! Got to pick my girl up from a conference and fellowshipped with many people, one being a student from Denver named Travis who was really cool. And it was just so encouraging because when people saw me they were like "CURTIS IS HERE!" haha Greg gave me a super crazy hug and Jeffrey recited the book of Hebrews. I admire these brothers so much. Me and Lisa, Nic and Olivia, and Willie and Katie went on an awesome triple to a GREAT helium air balloon, and GREAT carousel, in a GREAT park. I lost my wallet, but the Lord provided it back for me. We went to In-N-Out, played Bocce Ball, and flew 400 feet in the air in a vibrant orange balloon full of Helium!It truly was a blast. Lisa and I got pretty deep in the car driving to Long Beach and I promised her I'd pray. I'm a man of my word.

Lord Almighty,
Father, amazing counselor, perfect savior, you are beautiful, holy, powerful, and mighty. Thanks for you unswerving immeasurable love that is hotter than the sun. Please give me strength, give me energy, give me peace in my soul to forgive and forget any wrong anyone has done to me. I'm sorry for being so emotionally crazy, and blaming it on other people. I apologize for just being a jerk and not being a disciple all the time. Please heal me, thanks for forgiving me already and helping me to stand up stronger. I pray this time I will be surrendered to YOUR will and not MY will. Please Lord just show me the way and I will follow you. Please help me to be bold enough to make the sacrifices I know I need to make. Help me to be a powerful leader who uses his influence wisely with an immense amount of love. I'm so grateful for you and all that you do. Please help me to understand how blessed and lucky and easy my life truly is.
I want to pray especially especially for my amazing girlfriend Lisa. She is such an awesome powerful beautiful woman full of grace. Please fill her with wisdom as she leads girls and her family to you. I know she's doing a great job and giving her entire heart, please give her that extra boost of energy and strength to really make a difference in the lives of every woman in Irvine. As she goes to class help her to be bold enough to change the lives of her friends around her. Please please please connect her family together. Her immediate family is so disconnected at the moment and I know that if they just give Lisa a chance to share her convictions and the bible with her, they would change their lives. Ipray that family will destroy any hint of hypocrisy and really develop deeper convictions with you. I'm sorry I haven't always been there for Lisa to encourage her through family problems but I know she can do it through your power especially. Help Eva to wake up. I pray she will develop Godly sorrow--not worldly sorrow any longer. And as a result that she would open up to start coming to Lisa's church and when she goes back to school help her to not give into her old ways but rather to be connected to the church. I'm so extremely grateful for Lisa and all that you do through her, help her to know exactly what to say and the tone to say it in as she confronts her family on these types of issues. I'm so grateful for her relationship and encouragemnt and partnership in the gospel, help her to always turn to you in times of need.
Lord your awesome thanks for everything
C

Psycho Anteater

I had a huge thing already written and I have no clue how it got deleted but thats what happens when I multitask. Saturday my amazing girlfriend graduated from UCI with a bachelor in Psychology (she's a psycho anteater) and I had the honor to go to her graduation party! I was pretty nervous because it was going to be the first time I ever met her family. I knocked on the door and Uncle Dan opened up, i introduced myself and stuff and it was cool, he was pretty welcoming. THen I met her little sister Eva who goes to CSUSM--she also had a few friends at the party who I met as well. Next I met her mom Myriam--she was really cool and hyper and seemed excited to meet me. She then introduced me to Lisa's grandparents: Eva and Grandpa the ultra athletic retired marine who said the coolest quote: "take as much as you want, but eat all that you take" (or somethinjg like that)...alright after meeting all those people I walked out back and there was Lisa, she looked stunning in a beautiful pink dress with white polka-dots, pretty badge high-heel sandals, and nails painted near perfection to match her dress... Then I met her pops Buzz. He was grilling some bomb chicken and pineapple skewers. He was really cool I asked what he was grilling and he was like "whatever my wife told me to..." Anyways we were able to talk about construction for awhile later--he works for SDGandE as a designer for all the new city developments--he's a pretty big deal! in fact there used to be 5 people that do all the work he now does because he's the only one that didnt get fired...he seems like a really rad dad. Later I met all Lisa's friends (Alyssa (New York graduate from Lisa's highschool friend), Valerie (oneof Lisa's friends moms who is like auntie Julie and gave Lisa a bunch of drugs), Kevin a disciple, and a couple who came--the guy worked at coffee bean was going for Int'l Business w/ China, ramone? the football O-Line big guy, and of course Chynae...
we played basketball for like 20 minutes and then later played a couple games (monkey game, and the rule game--they did "respond to every question the way you think Lisa would respond) It was definitely funny. Later all the campus left and Chynae, Lisa, and I went to get frozen yogurt--it was SO FUN! We went to Velvet Frozen Yogurt and just had a great time chatting and encouraging her and chynae--my girlfriend is SO amazing!

PRAY!

Good Morning Lord,
My almighty father, perfect savior, thank you for another day. Lord please help me to wake up quickly and be truly attached to you, your body, the vine, your word, the spirit. I pray that every morning I will wake up early and jump with joy ready to have a great quiet time meditating on you and your beauty. Lord you are so powerful, thank you for expressing your power through the changes found in our lives and the freedom you've delivered us to from sin. Lord I'm so sorry for living in sin still even though I'm supposed to be your slave to righteousness. I pray I will repent, change, live according to your holy precepts. I so desperately and humbly need your help to get through the various challenges I face on a daily basis. THough its not always sinds of commission or actions, often times its sins of ommission and sin of the mind. Please Lord help me to control my mind, my thoughts, and really live out your will, meditate on your philosophy, your lifestyle, your holiness rather than mine. You are far beyond measure in everything that is good. Please help us to see that and be attracted to that far above satan's deceitful measure of everything bad. Help me and the entire campus ministry to truly throw off all the sin all the baggage that really has entangled us and stand up free of chains to really proclaim your name on campus, at the beach, at work, in the park, and everywhere we go. I pray that we can ALL be shephards, that we can all strive to at least have the qualities of an elder and truly get the fire back so that we are completely ready to handle the ginormous influx of new disciples that you will bring for us. I pray that as we grow we will only become more stable, not less personal and less stable but more tightly nit by your cement-factor glue that really makes all things stronger. I pray that the spirit will unite us all and that we will be a campus minsitry of SOLID character. HElp us all to truly work on our character and not let the selfishness or unrighteousness hold us back from being perfect and holy and mature in your name. I love you so much Lord, thank you for the greatness that you are. Please please please be with Lisa and I's awesome dating relationship. I know that it will only ever work if you are the head, number one, above all in our relationship. I pray that we will both keep you number one in our own personal lives, and number one in our relationship. I pray that we will do nothing that upsets you...though there will be times we mess up i pray that those will be far outweighed by the times we make you proud. Ipray that she will feel SUPER encouraged by me, my letters, cards, compliments, and quality time--especaily the quality time I get to spend with her this week and the rest of the summer and however long you want us to date for. I pray that if it is your will we might someday be ready to take it to the next level--but only if it is your will. Please allow this weekend to be a great time for me to meet her family and friends, but most importantly I pray that it will be a time i get to encourage Lisa and make her feel special. I pray that I can truly get along with her mom and dad first and then all her sisters, that I can come in and just be very charismatic, relatable, and represent you right. I love you so much and I pray you will continue to guide all my thoughts, attitudes, desires, and increase my faith beyond--far beyond where it is right now. I love you so much, once again please guide me in all I do. I love you, your awesome--oh and please be leading our household meeting tonight. I know that kevin is leading the charge, help him to deliver it right, not to be shy but really say what he needs to say, what you want him to say. I love you once again, thanks for all you do--AMEN!

One Year's TIme

Lord in Heaven. You are perfect, you are powerful, you are so gracious and you are love. Thank you for my amazing girlfriend Lisa who has inspired me to have a greater vision for myself, my friends, my family and ministry. Lord I pray that in one year, things will be even better than they are now. It's hard to imagine it, but Lord I firmly believe that you are going to move so radically and powerfully in my life through this last year of campus ministry. Please Lord, allow the best possible things to happen, i want to live life accomplishing the things you call me to, with eyes that see your perspective and are so devoted to living YOUR plan above my plan. Please give me the strength, energy, faith, and boldness to really live your plan out. I believe that in one year Lisa and I are going to be even closer. She's nearly done with her undergraduate work and now she's going to grad school which starts 1 week after her graduation. Please please please bless her life, her opportunity, her efforts to work so hard and learn so much. I know she was dreading her decision for a while and I kind of was too with my own selfishness, but please in one year I pray that the two of us will be optimistically awaiting her completion and in a state of much more unity, love, devotion and peace with one another. I pray that if it is your will, we could help plant a church somewhere. San Clemente would be so awesome!! I pray that if that is what you want, I'll be a GREAT surfer, that my pain especially will go away, please heal me, strengthen my bones and help me to be a man of great poise. Lord I love you SO much and I'm so extremely grateful for all you've done. I pray that in one year's time our campus ministry will far exceed 100 strong disciples. THat with our growth we stay SUPER united, SUPER connected to YOU, and extremely devoted to the fellowship. Please give UCSD a radical boost. I pray we can triple by the beginning of the fall semester 2012 and that you'll truly give me, alex, danielle, and alexis and dametrius a fervent spirit and devotion to your truth that is unlike anything in the world. I love you so much Lord please especially be with my little brother. I love him so much and I am so grateful for his love I pray you'll guide his path, make it straight and consistant. I pray he won't give in to peer pressure or look up to boys who have no spiritual mindset, but rather I pray you'll help me and others around him to be spiritual guides that help him to make it to heaven and lead a ministry someday. I love you so much Lord. Please use me, strengthen me, and encourage me right now and every day. Help me to be filled with joy as a result of the great purpose you've given us. I love you. AMEN!